my worst Christmas!

i cant believe it...this person in the pic is smiling so happy but she never know what is going to be happened after a few hours....
worst Christmas eve i ever had...
worst Christmas ...upset..

mom..u cried again...i promised to take k of u forever...we love u so much...

i am alone in a cafe named The Sense in Sungai Petani...
drinking a bucket of Carlsberg alone and chatting with my sis...
she was mentioning about our family and we had some complaints about it.. and then we started to cry and feeling upset...because of the family matter happened in our home..
my mom cried again...
she cried and complaint that if she had the financial support of her own..she will leave this house and live her own life... she said if she could be independent..she will leave his current husband..yes..which is my dad...
i could not explain and say much about my family matter now...but the reason which made her cry is because she thinks her husband never care about her anymore..
i could understand...if my beloved or husband had an affair...i would never accept and would chosed to leave....but my mom has no choice...
i was so ashamed of how i blamed about her...but..however how i blamed and complaint about her..i still love her very much...she is the toughest woman i know in my life...
i want to take care of her and care about her for the rest of my life...
i love u mom...i know i had upset u and made u disappointed about me..but i told myself and promised u once again i will make ur like be better and no one will take u away from me and bebe away coz we love u so much

orange還是不比apple好嗎...?

不開心...感覺你的冷漠很冷漠...冷到我有點無奈..
雖然我都不曾奢侈你會回我任何信件或是留言...可是我萬萬都想不到你可以冷淡到可以完全無動於衷...我真的不知道該冷冷一笑..還是要哭泣...
對你的愛..我真的已經開始覺得一直是我在一湘情願....難道當初你對我說...當你失去了APPLE所以就想找個ORANGE來代替是真的?一直以來..你對我這個ORANGE還是沒辦法讓你覺得你值得去愛嗎..? 對你來說...我真的那麼不重要ㄇ...? 呵...我自問我真的開始越來越自私...佔有你的慾望也越來越多... 別人的感情都是越久越醇...我怎麼感覺我們的感情好像越久越沒有安全感... 是因為我們分離比相聚還多嗎...? 我們都沒有共同的生活..也沒有共同的話題...我試圖想加入你的圈子..想了解你的事情好讓我們可以有更多的話題..我也試圖去提起或是研究我根本沒有興趣的事情而迎合你...我想我真的很天真....
我們的話題越來越少...你知道嗎..?
我們的距離越來越遠...你知道嗎..?
我該怎麼做才能挽救...?還是這是天方夜譚...你根本就不愛我...?

a little surprise of the day

breath~~~~breeeaathhhh~~~ BREEEEEAAAAAAAAATHHHHH ..the air of stress free....booyeah i'm so relieve~so release~and so relax now, now i can enjoy my Christmas holiday and lied on the bed from day to night..ops~ this is a little bit too~over~ hehe...
















this is my 1st Christmas present i got this year...haha..so sweet of my lil cousin sister..
she made the paper pocket herself and inside were two pieces of Tobleron chocolate (which i accidentaly left in the car and let them melted) , a piece of rice cookie...and a piece of tiny handmade card with her untidy handwritted wishes on it...so warm in my heart...

go~kill MIR, SAD and BE!!

so bored...i'm suppose to study for the exams tomorrow...but i just cant stand it anymore...
i sat for MIR test this afternoon..and it appears not too hard to me but somehow still worrying..hope i can pass the paper.

is this cute? this is a DIY puppy doll i bought for my sis...she is supposed to combine all the materials together and should make it look like a very cute pup... and then see what she had done to the doll...now i can tell that my sis is not good at sewing...but it is so adorable and made me laugh while thinking about it...









these are the study guides for the exams....i just have no eyes to see anymore...
wish me good luck!!

The Macallan and The Highland Park

finally i am back to Ipoh, but somehow i am missing my dear who is now still at Kuala Ketil working very hard and living dullness life there..lol..poor thing..we have two more weeks till the Christmas then we can meet up..but before that..i need to study very hard to prepare for this coming final exams..which means i have two more days ..and i am still having fun here...lol...i hate exams..$#%!#

this single malt whiskey is something new to me, my bf got this from the duty free shop at the border of Thailand. i dun have much knowledge about liquor, especially whiskey, the only thing i had learned is the difference of a ordinary whiskey and single malt whiskey.
all i could know is that a single malt whiskey is distilled from a single "malted" grain.
this Highland Park was crowned the Best Spirit in the World for its smokiness, a very special aroma with a smokey smell make this unique to me. my bf like this very much just because of this smokiness~










this The Macallan whiskey happens to pop out in Malaysia these years and became very popular. my friend told me that Macallan is much rare and price higher than those whiskey that is same level with it.

a boring day at Sungai Petani

reflection of bored
chilling....

so boring at Kual Ketil...i drived like 30mins from Kuala Ketil to Sungai Petani to escape from the empty room at K.Ketil...it was totally like living in hell for me.... boring life without internet access and tv and food...

have u ever had this feeling of u cant control urself? i told myself not to spend more than a RM50 at here...but i cant control myself and spent RM150 for some freaking short jeans and some cosmetics which i dun necessary needing them......anywayz....it's just another lesson i learned for today...

i bought this xmas special drink from starbucks...Toffee Nut Frappuccino... i missed the coconut frap while in Seattle..it was so tasty and crunchy with the baked coconut flakes on it... too bad Malaysia Starbucks dont have it...

my first blog...haha...

-m y_F i r s t_S h o u t_O u t_I n_B l o g s p o t-
oh yeah! finally i am done with my final assignment which assigned by Mr. Siva in Business Ethic ....now i can relax and start writing blog...hey..it's Emi in the block hahaha~

-h o w_w a s_m y_4th_o f_ D e c e m b e r_?
erm...it was a very busy day for me... at first..we had a sketch performance this morning..and my groups was the first group to present..our topic is about sexual harassment and i act as the secretary who is at the "bad" side helping the manager to harassed a new staff in the company...this sketch is really funny as Kamal and Kin Mun dressed in girls clothing and that is the most hilarious part of all.

-m y_f i r s t_t r y_f o r_I n d i a n_F o o d-
it was quite an experience for trying something new...i tried chapati..i tried roti canai..and i tried their fried noodle before..but i never try their rice...and yes..just like the typical indians.. crave with hand...
at first..we go to the counter and choose the food that we prefer...and then we need to wash our hands before eating... before started..kamal offer me some yogurt to pour on the rice..and we start eating with my right hand using all five of the fingers...and i'm sure need a lot practise for that to feed myself well...however...it does taste really good and i am so excited to share this experience with my family.

-my_crying_of_the_day-
yes..i was crying this afternoon because there was a misunderstanding happen between me and my brother. it was making my heart aching..but..now i'm released well as i know this is just a small potato and nothing can beat me down at all...i will stand up well and be tough always yes..